Saturday, October 6, 2007

hm.. i created this blog specially to blog about my feelings towards cy dar..
i don't feel like putting it in my journal entry anymore so i've decided to blog here.
honestly, i miss him alot. This is for certain. However, i know, i have alot of stuffs
that i must do. Things that i ought to do. But no matter what, life still goes on.
Cy dar seems very afraid of this topic. This i dunno why =c But anyway, after much
consideration, i realise, i truly like cy dar. i do. I mean, for dar now, studies and
everything are most impt to him. About waiting, well, that i have no idea. I'm just
a simple, just like every ordinary girl who wants to be loved by someone sincerely.
Probably, it's the wrong timing or the person. This i don't know for sure. But all
i know, i like really him. There'll always be a place for him in my heart. Now, i dunno
how to face cy dar anymore. i move 1 step towards him, he takes 10 steps back.
But i'm sure i like him alot so at least for time being, i'll still like him as much as ever.
If it fades with time, he hecks me, then it shall be. Some things are just not meant to be.
Like the saying goes: You yuan wu fen. and, bu zai hu tian chang di jiu, zhi zai hu cheng jing yong you.^^ I don't pin any hopes le. Now, i take things a step at a time. If it works out then gd! if it doesn't nvm! coz i believe, there's more to life than just tt.
And i believe, somewhere under the blue blue sky~ there's definitely someone meant for everyone. Yup!=) nitex! bb~ i was thinking, maybe i blog then prob hols den i share this blog wif cy dar. if he wants to read. I think he won't read. He'll think its a waste of time. But i hope he reads it. well, whatever it is, life goes on!yup!
o yeap. i've deicded to finish my 3 yrs uni then go and wk 2-3 yrs then do my masters in nus.
By 30 i should have finish my masters. Tt's my aim. and by then if i don't like my job scope, i'll do a postgraduate in education. I'll go teach instead!yup!^^ *smiles*